Sassy's World

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Its a funeral ASSHOLE!

Anyone who knows me, knows how terrified I am of funerals. The whole dead thing wigs me out a bit, hell it wigs me out a whole lot. I know we all die and blah blah blah but still. I dont like to SEE dead people.

I'll tell you a bit of why I'm so terrified. First off...I was only 8 years old when my grandfather on my mom's side died. We were never close he scared the shit out of me because he was so miserable. He never smiled, always grumbled you could never understand him and never seemed happy to see anyone but his dog. We only use to see him about 4 times a year which was plenty for me. Mom would tell me "oh we are going to see grandpa and Aunt Myrt today" I would try everything to get out of it. Never worked, my brother and I were tossed in the car against our will and off we went. My legs would shake all the way up to the door and when he'd open the door there was never a hi, nothing...

"MYRTLE....They are here"

Thats what we would get...Yeah love you too you old fucker! So my brother and I would sit in the living room in fear while he grumbled and everyone else talked, laughed or whatever have you. Grandpa found out in 1980 that he had cancer and did nothing to try and beat it, he just let himself die which pissed off alot of the family including my uncle...So Dec 27th 1987 we get the call that grandpa had died. Mom was crushed, my brother was freakin out cause mom was crying, I really didnt know what to do so I just went to my room and shut the door.

Time for the funeral!

We all get ready to go and I have to keep telling myself....He's dead, he can't scare you no more...over and over cause I'm still terrified. We get to the church and the service starts and we go through it all and mom is telling me through the entire service how she wants me to go up and see grandpa and say "goodbye" I tell her no and in my head I'm think "yeah screw you...My luck he'll wake up and grumble at me" well after the service I'm MADE to go up. My legs are like jello, my hands clammy and mom and I go up. Dad stays with my brother in the pew. We get up there and mom is talking to him saying she misses him and all that jazz...I lean over to say goodbye...and BAM

The fuckin glue on his eye let go...The fucker is staring at me with one eye open and one closed. Mom freaks out and his the floor...Fainted! I can't move, my legs are stuck to the floor and I'm screaming with every ounce of power I have in me.

My dad comes up to me and says are you ok....WIthout even thinking it starts to spew out of my mouth..

"the son of a bitch scared me when he was alive...and now THIS! I swore off funerals!

I had nightmares for months.

When I was 13 I watched some guy blow his brains out over a game of Truth or Dare. They dared him to pull the trigger and he did it...I was freakin out before he pulled the trigger but noone believed he would do it...I knew he would but noone listened to me because I had tits and no idea what I was talking about. So BANG..he's gone and we are all questioned and grilled and I had to see a shrink for years because of that...

THEN

I'm in grade 11 working in a old age home. Yeah I know that old people die and all that but....When they sent me down to wake Dusty for her supper I touched her and she was like a block of ice.. I went upstairs ever so calm to tell them she wasn't gonna make it for supper...They asked why...and for whatever reason I cracked off "because she's having lunch with the big man today" I had the rest of my co workers stunned. Then the head cook goes ooooooooooooooooo she's dead! DING DING...We have a winner...they make me go back down with the guy to make sure.. Shit dude I already seen her once do I have to go again?! For sure I did...Yep it was confirmed...she was dead for about 16 hours. WTF! they didnt check on her for that long?

So that is WHY I'm not a big fan on funerals, dead people and such.

Well a good friend of mine with a whole load of problems commited suicide last week so I had to go to a funeral today. He was only 28 years old :(. I so didnt want to go to the funeral but what kind of friend would I be if I didnt. So I went...The service went on for what seemed like forever and then I heard the words...Them dreadful fucking words...."Sassy you need to go up and say goodbye" I just looked at M and said 'Like fuck I do, I'll say goodbye from here' I had already gone up and said a few words about the deceased and almost puked while doing it, I'm not a fan of public speaking at all...

Well CA wanted me to go up with her so I gave in and went up...She kissed her brother goodbye and told him she loved and would see him soon. THEN some asshole comes up behind me...Pokes my sides and screams BOO.....

I screamed! CA fainted....and M freakin lost his marbles on the idiot. When I turned around and seen who it was I told him...its gonna be a double funeral jerkoff...He knew about my fear of funerals and decided to play it on me

Fucker!

*~*Chow*~*
posted by Sassy at 12:31 PM 3 comments

Sunday, January 28, 2007

We have snow by the ass load!

Today Boo decided he wanted to go out and build a snowman. So he comes over to me while I'm suffering from a nice headache and my stomach is all buggered up and leans on my legs and looks up at me with the puppy dog eyes.





Boo: mommy can we go build a snowman


Me: You dont wanna build a snowman, you want to throw snow at mommy!


Boo: No me wont, we just gots to build a snowman


Me: Daddy and I will take you out if you promise not throw snow at mommy. I dont have a winter coat, hat, mitts or anything so I'll freeze


Boo: ok mommy I promise





Sooooooooooooooooo I get him all dressed and ready to go when Hubs comes up with the idea of going to the store and get some goodies so that when we come in from playing in the snow we can have some hot chocolate, some goodies and watch a movie. So we put boo in his sled to pull him to the store




There he is ready to go....So we go to the store and get our goodies and come home...Boo's not ready to come in yet so we decided to stay out and play for THREE hours. Just as we were getting ready to go in Boo throws a huge ass snowball at me and covers me in snow. I just looked at him and he laughed away...Then hubs decides we are playing tackle football and I go down in a big pile of snow. Needless to say I was froze.

WE can in and put our jammies on, curled up on the couch with our hot chocolate and goodies and watched the movie Cars....What a cute movie!

*~*Chow*~*

PS....I am thinking about closing up blog shop and just being a reader...What do you all think???
posted by Sassy at 10:52 PM 3 comments

Friday, January 26, 2007

OMG ~ It was hilarious

Honestly today I was having a pretty rough day....Just call me butterfingers :D. I couldn't keep ahold of nothing to save my life. I was pretty depressed when I got up, aggrivated, just wanted to be left alone.

I heard the mailman close my mailbox so I went and opened the door to get my mail. Because my door swings open the wrong way in my opinion cause my doors swing the opposite of the way mine does. I have to go outside and around the door to get the mail. When the snow is blowing what seems 100 miles an hour and its freezing cold out the last thing I wanna do is go out and get the mail, but then I'm dying to see what is in the mailbox. So out I go and get the mail when I see her....Yep here comes Blondie out her front door to check the mail in a little teddy kinda night gown thing. She has a new man and from what I hear she likes to spend a whole lot of time playing with his goodies. So yeah here she comes in a little wee teddy that I'm sure had nothing underneath, small little spaghetti straps, and some lace in a pair of high heel shoes. WTF...She really has no brains.

I stopped to hollar down to my neighbour to see what was going on at his place Sat night cause we are invited down and we heard a scream. Just as I turned my head to look at her she fell, legs up over her head and she's flat out on the ground. Her ass bounced like it was full of jelly and there is on the ground. My neighbour must of noticed the jelly too cause he screamed out to her..."Ah your ass full of silicon saved your life"

I near died. I was laughing hysterically, snorting, choking, bent over with legs crossed laughing to kill myself. I'm so damn evil but its so hard not to laugh. Neither of us moved to go and help her up which was rather rude of us...I was in my sock feet, pj pants and a tshirt. I would of froze, and he was in nothing but splash pants and a tank top and his sock feet too.

Her boyfriend comes running out the house in nothing but a towel *so we know what they were doing * and scoops her up off the ground like you'd see in a damn fairy tale. She's ok so I turn to go in the house when I hear

"thank god I didnt land on my tits, they might of burst"

oh my! Someone save her from herself...

*~*Chow*~*
posted by Sassy at 3:44 PM 2 comments

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Just thought I'd share

It has been scientifically proven that if we drink 1 liter of water each
day,
at the end of the year we would have absorbed more than 1 kilo of
Escherichia
coli (E. coli) bacteria found in feces.



In other words, we are consuming 1 kilo of Poop
However, we do not run that risk when drinking wine,
beer (or other liquors) because alcohol has to go through a
distillation process of boiling, filtering and fermenting.



WATER = Poop
WINE = HEALTH
Free Yourself of Poop , drink WINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


It is better to drink wine and talk crap than to drink water and be full
of
crap, There is no need to thank me for this valuable information. I am
doing
it as a public service.
posted by Sassy at 4:22 PM 1 comments

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Kicked in the nuts!

ok so I dont have nuts but that's how I feel right now. Today has been one hell of a shitty day and it just gets worse and worse.

Hubs and I aren't getting along and I even called a legal aid clinic today about getting my marriage annulled since I haven't been married 9 months yet and I have a year before I have to actually divorce him. For the past few years he has some health problems and some have been close to life threatening and I have stuck by him like the faithful girlfriend (now wife). The last few weeks have been pretty stressful cause we had all gotten the flu and we were pretty down and out and spent no time together cause while one of us was up with Boo the other was asleep. Then we have been going through all the stuff with going to and from Toronto which takes the entire day and makes everyone miserable. So I thought this weekend we could spend the weekend together as a family while noone is sick and actually do stuff. HA! he's going out with the "boys" and plans on coming home plastered. Hubs and I do not under any circumstances get along if he's been drinking. He becomes very verbally abusive, careless and likes to call me on all my faults I've had growing up. So this does not amuse me at all. So I have made arrangements to go and spend the night at my gramma's house if he dont come home. I'm not having Boo here around him like that.

Today I have watched my friends fall apart all around me. I feel as though I'm to blame for 98% of it cause I have a big mouth and tend to speak my mind. I must of talked to all my friends today and I'd say 9 out of 10 of them blamed me for their problem. They might not of come right out and said "your the cause" but it sure feels that way. So I have decided that until I figure out a way to "Fix" everything I'm gonna shut myself away from them then I can't hurt them no more and cause no more problems

*~* Chow *~*
posted by Sassy at 4:41 PM 2 comments

Monday, January 22, 2007

There goes my TV

Normally I love football. I love football when my teams are in it and when hubs team in still in cause that means that I dont have to hear that screaming and hollaring about how much his team sucks shit and how a group of first graders make a better football team then his team.

That was what I had to hear lastnight.

The fuckin colts beat out the patriots and my house went to shambles. So yeah you can damn well guess who hubby was rooting for. Here is a clue....it was NOT the colts.

He threw the remote and hit the corner of my 52 inch tv and busted a chip out of it. Then there was me the raging lunatic wife because he just beat the shit out of my TV. I'm all its not like you bet money on the fuckin game so relax dude. He wasnt hearing it so my ass went to bed.

THANK YOU PATRIOTS FOR BEING IDIOTS!

Anywho tonight.....

I did the wife thing and took out the garbage. I'll have you know its usually hubby's chore but from having his boxers in a twist I did it just so I wouldn't have to listen to him I did it.

I'm going out the front door with 2 bags of garbage and I'm heading for the street when I heard the voice.

God save me now!

"Hey Sassy, you taking out the garbage?"
"No I sliced and diced a few bodies and I'm looking for a place to hide the remains"
"YOU DID WHAT"
I roll my eyes, drop the garbage and go in the house. Hubs asks me what is going on so I tell him and he busts out laughing. He goes to the door and she's staring at the bags and TALKING to them. Like hello!

I suppose before long I'll have the damn cops at my door thinking I killed someone

*Chow*
posted by Sassy at 8:42 PM 0 comments

Saturday, January 20, 2007

How are people so stunned?

People with no brains should be sent to live together in a secluded freakin area where they are not a danger to themselves.

Seriously....The blonde chick across the street is dumb.

Here is how it went!

Mom and I are unloading the groceries to bring in the house. Its COLD people and I mean nipples like glass cutters and she comes outside in a short mini skirt and a tank top and boots to her freakin knees. She asks if we need help to which we said no but thanks for the offer. My neighbour comes out and says "Hey bubble snatch, you cold" to which she replies "YES! I'm freezing and I Dont have idea why"

HELLO JACKASS!

So after we tell her that she might wanna put some nice warm pants on and maybe a sweater and you know a coat would be mighty fine too she just has this blank "I'm an idiot" stare to which I asked "something we say not sink in?" she then tells me if she covers up she wont look hot no more.

This is where I faint. After I get up off the ground I just shake my head.

Lets see how hot you look when your nose is red, your eyes are puffy and your coughing your guts up dummy!

Ugh

*~* CHOW *~*
posted by Sassy at 7:05 PM 2 comments

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

oh this day is gonna suck!

I'm tired and my stomach is churning like butter.

We have to take a hour train ride to good ole Toronto. Then I get to deal with the unfriendly taxi drivers while trying to get one of them to take a WSIB person which is NOT easy. Then we get to go sit at the hospital for 3-4 hours while I wait for hubs to get his patch testing done. So he will then be good and miserable cause he'll be covered in patches with stuff under to find out if he's allergic to the paint at work.

THEN

I get to deal with the taxi drivers again to take us back to Union Station to catch the train home.

We leave our train station at 12:40pm and I wont be home till around 9pm. I dont wanna go lol. Its cold and and I'm miserable and I'm gonna freeze my ass off.

Ah well. I do what I gotta do I suppose.

Chow
posted by Sassy at 10:19 AM 3 comments

Monday, January 15, 2007

Losing my grip!

I think its about time I seek some serious mental help. The last 48 hours I have felt like I'm losing my grip on life. I spent all day yesterday flaked out on the couch and watched all 3 lord of the rings movies. 9 hours and I never moved other then to use the bathroom. If my mind started to wander at all it was like I was climbing the walls. Every small noise irrated me and caused me to shake, I didnt want to speak or be spoken too. I fought back tears all day. Today isn't much better. I still feel as though I'm losing my grip.

What is wrong with me???

I have asked myself that question about 1000 times since yesterday. Is the flu eating away at me? IS the Benalyn starting to make me crazy? I'm I just going crazy? How come I can't get a grip? I get like this and I'm terrified to be alone. Not because I Think I'm going to hurt myself or Boo but because I just wanna lock myself away and I can't.

We got our first ice storm and from what I hear its pretty bad. Around my house is pretty ice bound but the roads are clear. Hanging from the trees and such are nice long icicles however. So now maybe the flu germs will up and book out of my house

Chow
posted by Sassy at 1:45 PM 3 comments

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Still down with the flu!

But we are starting to come back.

After trying a ton of different medication to try and rid this flu I Think we found that Benalyn 1 is the best thing out there for what we are fighting. After 8 days with this damn virus I've about had enough. I'm still not over it but I'm 95% better then I was this time last week. Boo is also showing great improvement as well. We actually had a full night sleep lastnight with no coughing it was BEAUTIFUL.

Mom and I took boo to the walk in clinic lastnight to get looked at because he was coughing pretty bad and it was starting to make me a tad nervous. So off we go in the rain to see what is going on. After sitting waiting in the waiting room for near 3 hours we got called in, only for Boo to scream he wanted gramma so I had to get the nurse to go get her. We are then all in the room waiting another 45 minutes for the dr he finally strolls in. He checks boo over and says that his chest is slighly congested but nothing major and the couch is from a tickle in his throat which I know all too well cause thats what sends me into a coughing fit. So he tells me to go and get Childrens Benalyn for Boo and some adult stuff for me because if Boo sees me coughing he's gonna cough. Yes dr! Then I was NOT amused

Me: how long does this flu last roughly?
dr: it can last up to 6 weeks
Me: SIX FUCKING WEEKS?
mom slaps me in the back of the head and tells me to watch my mouth
Me: But mom did you hear that....we could be sick for SIX, count them 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 WEEKS and then I'll be dead

So I go on my way because mommy got mad at me :(

I'm feeling almost human again so that's a YAY ME!

CHOW
posted by Sassy at 8:13 PM 1 comments

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

I'd like to take the flu and stick it!

I've had the flu now since Friday and I'm tired of it. Up to the ears fed up. I cough like you wouldnt believe and its starting to drive me insane. Boo has the croup so the two of us together is a site to see. Neither of us can stop coughing 2 minutes at a time and all we have done is lay on the couch since friday. I've seen more episodes of Dora the Explorer then I have ever cared to see. But I was that sick I would of watched the pope talk on 12 hours straight as long as I didnt have to move.

Here it is Jan 9th and we will have no snow. Well we have a light dusting of it but I wouldn't call it snow and the temperature has dropped a bit but nothing like we usually have and from what i hear its suppose to get warm again this weekend coming. I wish it would get freezing cold and kill these damn flu germs.

Nothing has changed around here really! I really wish something good would happen but I Dont see that in the near future.

Well I'm heading back to the Big comfy couch

*~*Chow*~*
posted by Sassy at 4:29 PM 2 comments

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

The holidays killed me!

So I'm writing to you from the dead.

As soon as I return I will remove the Christmas background off my blog because frankly I'm tired of the holidays now. They were great dont get me wrong and I really enjoyed having 2 weeks home with my hubby and Boo because if you can believe we did NOT fight which is a world freakin record for us. We fight if we are home together more then 48 hours because we can't agree on nothing. I think he's too hard on Boo he dont think I'm hard enough. I cleaned the house but its not good enough for him.. That kinda of stuff.

So its now 2007!

My mom has a theory and I hope to fuck its right. Cause crikey I love the theory!

It took me 4 years to get pregnant with my son. We tried from 1999 till 2003. Now being 2007 that means 4 years ago I got pregnant. So we are hoping this is my year. I want another baby so bad and my hubby and I aren't getting no younger. He's gonna be 31 this year and I'm gonna be 29 so time is slowly getting short and being that I have a hard time getting pregnant time is getting shorter alot faster for me!

So I'm hoping...I'm gonna start eating right and doing some exercises to try and lose some weight and hope that be dec 31 2007 I'm haveing baby #2 :D

CHOW
posted by Sassy at 11:14 PM 2 comments